This time-stream I’m witnessing on planet earth feels kind of like the worst movie I’ve ever seen.
Like when you’re watching a movie and you want it to horrify you, enrage you, confuse you …
I wonder … Could it be that deep within our collective unconscious we want this scenario that’s seemingly happening?
And because we thought it, we desired it, we feared it, we imagined it,
it has to play out?
Anything we can possibly dream up – the most auspicious and the most ominous
Sooner or later it’s gotta show up – Every potential will be manifested
What the hell is going on here?
Are we lost and hopeless? Is there anything that we can do? What on earth is happening? Is anything true? Is this all a concocted game of insanity without purpose? What the hell am I doing here?
Then I relax. Breath. Close my eyes.
I feel alone in my uncertainty.
I hold the moment of silent inward connection.
Through what feels like my heart’s voice, I can feel what I intuit to be God’s (Absolute) pull.
It pulls so strongly at my heart that I can’t help but feel Certain that this pull is the most important thing to place my attention on. It’s voice silently informs me that I should spend every waking (and sleeping) moment in Time in devotion to Serve Its purpose, even though I don’t understand it.
This pull wants me to Trust It’s Certainty.
It says, Don’t ever stop contemplating my mystery and my omnipresence. This is your highest purpose.
And even when I forget, and feel lost in uncertainty, this pull of God continues to yearn for me to remember.
…you should no longer go on walking just as the nations also walk, in the futility ( emptiness; vanity) of their minds. They are in darkness mentally and alienated from the life that belongs to God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the insensitivity (dulling) of their hearts. (Ephesians 4:17, 18). Let a rotten word not come out of your mouth, but only what is good for building up as the need may be, to impart what is beneficial to the hearers (Ephesians 4:29)
I am pulled to remember that this paper world is not Real. We have forgotten how to connect with nature (God) and our materialism has become the only God we know. Of course, it looks bleak when we place our trust in what is Not True.
I feel the pull …. I feel the pull … I feel the pull of my heart strings.