The long ride home
after the news
a knowing arose within me
that I had to finally face life
as it IS
in order to fully face death
was it coincidence our granddaughter arrived for her summer visit
precisely on the day I would learn that my body was failing?
I doubt it
Divine, it’s all divine timing
Her 13-year-old innocence brought a needed distraction
She would sit in the front seat with Papa
so I could sit in the back
(and quietly cry to myself)
Until God spoke to me
Listen to me and open your heart to my Loving Guidance
That’s when His Voice came through
In the songs
on Briana’s I-phone playlist coming through the car speakers
Each song with it’s own profound message for me to hear
WE ARE LIKE DIAMONDS IN THE SKY, SHINE LIKE A DIAMOND
Yes, I know, dear God, I know, but how often I forget
THIS IS WHAT YOU CAME FOR ….. YOU, YOU, YOUUUUU
I guess so, for You to Live through me and teach me how to BE MySelf
WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO DO?
Oh, I am willing now, to face my life AS IT IS. To stop the trivial nonsense of self judgements and expectations, to end the obsessive desire to control, and to BE HERE for all that arises in my path and offer my full self to IT.
JUST WANNA KEEP CALLING YOUR NAME ‘TIL YOU COME BACK HOME
I hear you, sweet Lord. I am ready when you will have me back.
WE FOUND LOVE IN A HOPELESS PLACE
SHINE A LIGHT THROUGH AN OPEN DOOR
This place is pretty bleak, even among all it’s natural beauty, we humans have fucked it up royally, haven’t we? Yet we still find LOVE when we open our hearts and allow Your Light to shine through
I smiled to myself,
God’s Voice is Everywhere