Mountain Top Road

what do you value?

I inherited the wild outdoor cats when I purchased my house in PA.

The cats are wild in the sense that they survive outdoors in the natural world, but also domesticated through being fed regularly by the previous home owners and now by myself.

I’ve adopted them, Mama, Goldie, and their vagabond sister, Clone, who comes and goes at her whim. Mama and Goldie never leave the property. This is their home.

I am always in awe of Goldie’s obvious behavior of caring and loving attention to her aging Mama (Calico cat in photo)

She watches for her, allows her to run first for the food dish, and always cleans her head for her.

Mama has been wheezing since I first met her. I’ve tried homeopathic remedies to help ease any congestion, but trust that she will survive as she is meant to.

My contemplation today was, ‘Will Goldie mourn mama’s death?’

Or do Goldie and mama have access to an understanding of what death really is on a deeper level than humans have access to?

I found the following writing helpful on the contemplative practices around life and death:

“Deepening our understanding of death can radically affect how we live life. Priorities can change and we may not have as much of an investment in an imagined future—perhaps less accumulation of things; perhaps less of an obsession with unattainable security; perhaps less of a preoccupation with “becoming someone,” not so much living for the “future,” because there isn’t one. Is it possible to have fulfillment in this moment?

To learn how to die is also to learn how to live.

Death can serve as a “coach,” encouraging us to live completely in the present, with more confidence and less fear. When we shine the light of death on the yearning for power, fame, and money, they tend to lose of some of their magnetic pull. In the case of vipassana yogis this can mean a dramatic strengthening of the commitment to wholeheartedly engage in practice.

The contemplation of death has helped to take me through the “ups and downs” of practice—it can be an effective antidote to periods of mental dullness. We don’t have forever! Whatever our condition, whatever time and situation we find ourselves in—ideal for practice!

When I get caught in pettiness or resentment towards others, remembering to turn towards thoughts of death, usually restores the mind to balance.

In a dharma talk, Ajahn Maha Boowa told us about a forest monk in Thailand who found himself face to face with a tiger. He was able to manage his fear, and avoid being attacked, by reflecting on how he and the tiger were comrades in birth, old age, sickness and death. His fear was replaced by deep compassion. They observed each other carefully for a few moments, and the tiger walked away.

The message of our impending death can of course have a rather different outcome. An obviously dejected person approached me once after a talk on maranasati. He was disappointed in himself, wanting to drop everything for the dharma—but actually preferring sex, drugs and rock-and-roll!

What do we really value? Why were we born?

In brief, without being mindful of death, whatever Dharma practices you take up will be merely superficial. -Yogi Milarepa

Excerpt from: Shining the Light of Death on Life: Maranasati Meditation (Part I)
Larry Rosenberg, Spring 1994


I’m not ready to tell you

Had this dream that’s been bugging me for a few days now

I’m talking to a dark-haired, slight-framed young man

telling him, emphatically, “I’m not ready to tell you, I’m not ready to tell you

I felt emotionally connected to the young man, even somewhat romantically attached

he had fair skin and chiseled features, soft hair

it was not until this morning when I read the following excerpt that it struck me

this dream is my higher self telling ME that I’m not ready to completely know my purpose here in this life

I guess I’ve got some more work to do …….. thank you, Dr. Petrinovich, for your insight.

Dr. Petrinovich’s excerpt:

All of the lives you have lived are present in this Now Moment. You are a composite of all you have experienced. Therefore, all you see around you is filtered through this awareness and composite of understanding. When you look within for your message as an encoded Angelic Human upon the planet earth, use the amalgamated you to bring forth the meaning within your life. It is there. It is waiting for you to fold back the cover of its understanding. Only you can do it. Only you know how, when and where. And you do know, in fact, you are the only one who truly, completely does understand what your message means to you and to the world.

Check your focal point. What are you concentrating on? What is the dominant vibration of your being? What you are vibrating is what you are and it is that frequency that will draw all of your experiences to you. Instead, be gentle with yourself; don’t try to make anything happen.


1) there is a deeper level to all interactions,

2) look at the greater purpose that brought you into any situation,

3) listen to the messages carried within the situation,

4) ask for help from your inner Source i.e., Universal Intelligence,

5) communicate with your group soul,

6) watch for synchronicities,

7) stay centered in your energy, and

8) visualize yourself remembering why you came to earth.

You Know Your Angelic Human Message, (excerpted and augmented from Chapter Seven of the The Call, Awakening the Angelic Human), Reverend Doctor Toni Petrinovich, Sacred Spaces




“Where you need to go in life and your sense of direction are really the criteria for where you need to be physically. It’s not about the beauty of a place or your how close it is to nature or whether it has the nightlife or the daylife that you want, it is about whether that is the place you need to be now and where you need to build the next stage of your life.

This is a fundamental deep question that goes beyond your desires, your preferences, even your romance about a certain place because you could choose the most beautiful place imaginable and if that’s not where your life needed to be, it would be a dead zone for you. It would be empty. You might try to make it wonderful and everything you want it to be but it wouldn’t be true.

It all comes down then to finding your direction in life and that’s a navigational emphasis. It’s not like you know where you’re ultimately going to be because that is very unlikely. But are you in the right place at this right time and will you know if that needs to change? Will you know if you come to a point where the road ends, given where you are, and you need to make a change?

Because where you land physically and who you are associated with are two very critical things that will determine your ability to experience what you know and to follow what you know. For example, if you are in the wrong locale, you are not going to meet the critical people you need to meet. They are not going to be there. So the attributes of the place itself become very secondary, almost unimportant here except in so far as they serve your sense of purpose and direction.

People romance places as well as people and that is setting your life according to criteria that is really very meaningless. You were born with a higher purpose that means you have a destiny in life. A destiny means your have a direction you must find and follow, step by step, stage by stage.

Sensing if you are in the right place at the right time for this moment is very important and also realizing whether that place is temporary or permanent for you. This is why it is so important not to settle down, not to plant roots, not to establish yourself in a place not until you have a real sense of where you are going in life and a real sense if that place that you are choosing is really appropriate and necessary given this greater criteria for your life.

God has put Knowledge within you to guide you and to lead you towards your true direction, to be able to carry you forward within that direction given all the persuasions of the world, all the attractions of the world. It is your Knowledge then that will be your navigator, will help you to choose where you need to go, when you need to go and who you need to meet.

If you will follow this, you will have the greatest opportunity to discover the real meaning and purpose of your life and the contribution that you have come here to give.”

Marshall Vian Summers, The Messenger

the truth is timeless

“When you feed yourself food for the mind, be careful where you eat.

There’s very little today on television that’s wholesome, especially with all the symbolism behind it. But If you will learn this symbolism, that’s passed down from Mercury and Hermetics here, and alchemy, then that magic no longer works on you. When you see how the trick is done, its no longer a trick, its no longer magic, it just becomes a slight of hand.

That word sign is a LOGO. In the beginning was the word; that word is LOGO. The symbols, the signs.

That’s why I keep telling you, LEARN THEM, LEARN THEM, LEARN THEM. You won’t ever understand anything you “see” until you understand the meanings behind these symbols, and it’s so in depth, it’s something a person must do for themselves. You keep training yourself until it becomes second nature.

Mastering a thing. Keep doing it until you perfect it. (Kung Fu)

You keep meditating.

You keep learning the symbology.

And you keep on keepin’ on.

To be a wise, ascended master, you must know all SIGNS”

Lavette Hawkins


A classic kick ass song …..  still true:



“You’re the spirit in the magic circle
You’re the yoke in the egg
And you have to come out of yourself
And you do that through the pineal gland

I don’t want to get involved in politics
I want to teach astrology and alchemy because to me that is the greatest gift I can give you because it’s the tools that help empower you on a personal level.
The bible is a friggen alchemy and astrology book that tells you how to live in this world!
How to take up your cross, understand who you are, and follow the lamb wherever he goes;
MEDITATION, going within.
When you walk in the Kingdom, you realize that sun outside is just like a light in my closet.
Y’all go commit that random act of kindness……”

A Compromise Can Get You Compromised, Lavette Hawkins


“The closing of our pineal gland …..

It doesn’t just dumb us down

it limits our access to our higher senses

So we only have this five-sense version of reality

But there are a lot of other higher senses

Max Igan – WhistleBlower Nation – Revolution Radio – June 8th 2018″


single eye meditation

Bless me, Father *, that I behold the Eastern star of wisdom. May it shine before my human eyes as much in daylight as in darkness.

Long my eyes were blinded by the tinsel-glitter of materiality. Seeing things always outwardly, I saw not the Spirit behind and within them. I saw the mustard-seed of matter, but spied not the oil of Spirit that it contained.

My third eye (single eye) of wisdom is now opened. Oh, may it always be so! Let the gaze of my single eye of realization penetrate through every veil of matter to behold the infinite presence of Christ (consciousness), everywhere.

Bless me, that my sacred, wise thoughts, following this star of knowledge, lead me to the Christ (consciousness) in everything.

By Paramhansa Yogananda
(*Saturn is the father of Zeus)