as the world turns

“If you live for the things of this world, that’s all you’re gunna get”

Lavette Hawkins

sitting in padmasana, while floating in my aerial hammock

My morning meditation ensues

intuitive sense of being inwardly stable at the core

while my physical energy form is spinning around a quiet and still inner axis

I can intuit feeling how the earth must feel wobbling on its axis

I ask myself, what is true?

I sit in Silence

no audible answer arrives

just an awareness that I exist in this moment

is that not enough?

with clarity that the awareness of this moment is beyond my understanding

I remind myself that I can’t see anything for what it really is

but there is a strong pull to look deeply at ALL relationships today (after all, it’s 12/12)

the One and the Other, the circle and the diameter, the Self and God

and I practice the last four stages of Patanjali’s 8-fold path:

Pratyahara, withdrawal of the senses

Dharana, fixing the mind to a single point

Dhyana, focused meditation where the subject and object are fully aware of each other

Samadhi, subject and object recognize each other as the same, and become One

I rest with an inner knowing that there is nothing more valuable than this thing we call Life,

even in our misunderstandings, our seeming errors, our untrue beliefs, and our non-life-enhancing actions

even these mistakes are of value although we can’t comprehend it from this perspective

I remember and re-cognize that it’s the only thing that Exists (this thing we call Life),

and that it is without beginning and without end

because the only REAL relationship is Life eternally experiencing itself as Life

“Live your life. If you have a gospel of truth, share it. And if it is true others will hear it. Be the good shepherd, and those that are supposed to hear your voice will hear it.”

Derrick, global witness

 

 

Knowing and Not Knowing

It can go either way; both ways, neither way, one way or another.

That is the beauty of the Mystery of Life

But we are still trying to manifest what we think we Know in the world.

We need Both Knowing and Not Knowing.

We need All of it. We need None of it.

Flashback: I was 10 or 11 years old. I’d get off the school bus and walk half-a-mile home, down Roberts Road and up the hill to Johanna Lane. This was 1970, and thankfully children did not have to carry their I phones everywhere. So my daily walk home from the school bus was an opportunity to be quiet with myself in nature.

One day, walking up the hill to my house, A HUGE, QUIET awareness entered my 10-year-old psyche. For the briefest moment time stood still and I became aware of Awareness Itself.

Of course, as a 10-year-old child I lacked the maturity to even process an experience like this. But it was experienced in a way that Janet’s little mind could actually sense Big Mind – and yet there was a noticing that they were BOTH Janet’s mind!

It was like looking through the opening of a long tube and observing a single eye looking back at you from the other end. But it’s Your Eye!

This was my first introduction to Zen, and I didn’t even Know it. But the perfume never left me.

Flashback to present time reality. The paradoxical predicament of Knowing and simultaneously Not Knowing has presented a subtle change in my awareness post silent retreat.

Whenever I observe my mind’s seemingly natural tendency to compulsively plan future moments, to obsessively over evaluate, and to habitually fall into conditioned storytelling, I do stop, take a moment, and allow the Voice of Not Knowing to remind me to lighten up and let go. However, it seems there is an equally powerful Voice of Knowing that I also have access to.

This Knowing Voice can often guide my actions in the world. This Knowing Voice witnesses the insanity of the world and guides me to see the truth of the matter. It always informs me where to place my heart’s intentions.

In time-dimension reality, it seems that our new God could easily be called Technology if we succumb to the obsessive desire to Create a Controlling God. Be alert and informed and aware of the positive AND negative potentials of this powerful God.

My Knowing heart’s intentions are screaming, Go outside and see the Natural life around you.

Plant a seed and wonder if it will grow or not.

Trust that Life will always Exist regardless of your attempted manipulation of it.

I attached the video below because I was intrigued in the way David brings to light the potential truths of transhumanist agendas, and I just love him. He doesn’t give a shit if people think he’s wacko, he speaks from the Knowing in his own heart.  And I was even more pleasantly surprised when the video switches midway to an interview with Monnica Sepulveda (at around 28 minutes). Profound insights …….

(video credit inspired by Out of this world X, Hatter’s blog)

The Word is not That

As human beings, I sense that our commonality of experience can be summed up as a deeply suppressed sense that something is dreadfully wrong about this existence. I think this “sense” hovers in a part of our mind that we’ve mostly forgotten to recognize, but sometimes, for some of us; it awakens and shows itself again.

But I am not referring to the “something wrong” that takes the form of the ego’s compulsion to desire something other than what is actually happening in the moment. It’s actually something deeper than that superficial desire to control the outcome of our actions, and deeper than the realization that we actually cannot control the seen and unseen consequences of our actions.

I am referring to a deep inner knowledge that this existence we consciously perceive is constructed on a foundation of complete insanity. I am referring to an innate recognition of an overbearing “untruth” about this realm of existence regardless of your world view and your social/psychological/emotional indoctrination.

The very realization of one’s existence, the moment we are consciously aware of being a living being, it is the “birth” of a miraculous individual lifeform, and the lifeform’s individuality is an instinctual right to be unique and free to BE as it was created to BE. Of course, we don’t know what the lifeform was “created to BE” but we do know that IT exists. I AM is the only utterance close to truth.

Every single being that can say I AM was “created to BE” and each individual lifeform exists with the same instinctual right to be unique and free to be as it was created to BE.
At least this is a simple idea we can ALL agree upon.

The word “Natural” seems appropriate here.

Our natural inherent instinctual right is to be what we naturally are.

But not knowing what we actually are resulted in the creation of some insane beliefs to hide that deep sense that something is dreadfully wrong.

Believing in the idea that an authority outside us and above us is required to rule our actions has created and enabled the insanity of such things as slavery, political cabals/government, creation of financial debt, legalized violence/war, power by force, legalized theft/taxation, formalized religion).

You do not need an outside authority to govern your actions unless you have been conditioned to believe that you do. You were created with the innate ability to discern Ahimsa (no harm).

This innate ability has been conditioned out of us through our continued belief and agreement to abide in a state of being that is NOT free.

As Liz Cronkhite describes it (I’m paraphrasing), “the moment the idea of NOT GOD entered the One Mind, it was undone.” But in Time it appears to be happening again and again and again. So we are experiencing NOT GOD in Time, which is possible because of Infinite Potential, but NOT True.

The perpetual human condition of slavery is ever so present in our continued belief and acceptance of present day “masters” (political leaders/government, money/ debt creation, power to control others by force, and legally accepted violence in all forms. (Violence means murder, not self-defense)

True Anarchy is the natural and free state of being.

Anarchy does NOT mean without rules, without order; it does NOT mean chaos and disorder, it does NOT mean no laws.

It is translated as Without (an) Masters (archon).

No masters meaning no slaves.

Krishnamurti’s expression here is way better than my feeble attempt: