was it coincidence our granddaughter arrived for her summer visit
precisely on the day I would learn that my body was failing?
I doubt it
Divine, it’s all divine timing
Her 13-year-old innocence brought a needed distraction
She would sit in the front seat with Papa
so I could sit in the back
(and quietly cry to myself)
Until God spoke to me
Listen to me and open your heart to my Loving Guidance
That’s when His Voice came through
In the songs
on Briana’s I-phone playlist coming through the car speakers
Each song with it’s own profound message for me to hear
WE ARE LIKE DIAMONDS IN THE SKY, SHINE LIKE A DIAMOND
Yes, I know, dear God, I know, but how often I forget
THIS IS WHAT YOU CAME FOR ….. YOU, YOU, YOUUUUU
I guess so, for You to Live through me and teach me how to BE MySelf
WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO DO?
Oh, I am willing now, to face my life AS IT IS. To stop the trivial nonsense of self judgements and expectations, to end the obsessive desire to control, and to BE HERE for all that arises in my path and offer my full self to IT.
JUST WANNA KEEP CALLING YOUR NAME ‘TIL YOU COME BACK HOME
I hear you, sweet Lord. I am ready when you will have me back.
WE FOUND LOVE IN A HOPELESS PLACE
SHINE A LIGHT THROUGH AN OPEN DOOR
This place is pretty bleak, even among all it’s natural beauty, we humans have fucked it up royally, haven’t we? Yet we still find LOVE when we open our hearts and allow Your Light to shine through
The video below is such a beautiful articulation of our relationship to the Creator.
This is not a plug for any particular esoteric belief system, it just happens to speak volumes to what my own experience is when I actually place my attention on “Being the Diamond” or as I’ve stated in my own way as Being Love.
I’m sharing this podcast to extend that shine, and inspire others to practice knowing their own perfection in Connection with the Creator.
There are so many gems to hear if you can listen for 48 minutes. Here are just a few:
Video time around 17:21:
‘“Anything that is not that diamond; that is NOT you”
(i.e.; our egoic self – 5-sense-controlled personal self is NOT that diamond, but instead it is the evil/sinner, false belief in separation from God, the opponent)
“My job is to identify what is NOT the diamond and remove it from my life”
22:24: “Why do we have shame? Because we forgot the Creator”
26:18 “The process is the purpose.”
On a personal note, tomorrow I start my “first” chemo treatment in 5 months of being on chemo holiday; this comes after a 33 day round of intense proton therapy radiation. I am laughging at the idea of it being my “first” chemo treatment; after all, I’ve had a total of 52 chemo infusions in the past 3-1/2 years.
However, this idea about Being the Diamond has shined a light on this experience that was not visible to me before …
Every moment is “the first” and potentially “the last” in which we have a choice … how will I learn/experience/grow/give/love and recognize my infinite potential of becoming the diamond?
Dear God, help me to remember to Be the Diamond. This prayer will be with me all day tomorrow. And I pray, to be with me in each and every moment ….
Ethereal: extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world.
A lightness of seeing occurred today while walking outside in the sunshine.
Perhaps its the effect of the Proton Therapy radiation beams building in the tissues of my body.
Or perhaps it was just Divine timing to allow an experience (imagining?) of something out of the ordinary.
Something within me knows I’ve always had an affinity to recognize other portals of consciousness.
Being away from home and living in a hotel for a month opens the senses to new sights and sounds … then adding to the equation daily radiation treatment for a tumor engulfed in my brachial plexus nerves, serving as a constant reminder of the vulnerability of this flesh and bone bodysuit.
Taking a pre-sunset walk outdoors, I felt beckoned to take a route down an unknown pathway. A sidewalk leading downhill along a road I had once known a few decades ago. I worked there – Stryker – a huge international corporate entity – makers of robotic medical devices.
God, how I hated that job.
It was a time of being in-between careers when I got kind of lost and ended up as a temp admin for a Stryker team working on the Oracle countdown (the company-wide data transfer to a new IT system – Oracle). Each morning sitting in the parking lot pre-workday I’d recite a prayer from Psalms, always ending with Please grant me the strength and grace to make it through another day at Stryker. It was a cold building – mentally and physically- robotic in nature – and I sensed it oozing through the cold slabs of the concrete walls.
And yet this evening’s walk took me down the pathway to the same Stryker building, but this time the view was from a surreal, perfectly manicured landscaped pathway. Every tree perfectly placed along shrub-lined islands blooming with spring color.
Is this the place I despised so much? It looked like paradise.
Memories flashed …. the myriad of feelings resurfaced in my psyche.
I walked … and remembered … and mentally revisited.
And on the way back up the winding pathway through paradise, I had a revelation of sorts.
Could this be Spirit’s way of showing me what the ethereal Life is like?
A Life Review from an other-worldly place that feels like paradise?
The feeling sense literally stopped me in my tracks.
Am I really here?
Or am I seeing this from an ethereal Life Review?
I began walking again focusing on the peripheral neuropathy in my feet and allowing myself to feel the way the earth touched my sneakered feet.
I began to see another serendipity. My daily visits to east Harlem for treatment. Another life review. This is the place I worked in my thirties. Now I’m seeing the same Harlem neighborhood through my 61-year-old eyes. The place I grew to know as a young vibrant woman viewed through the eyes of a middle-aged cancer patient.
Back in the physical now, the ethereal moment becomes a memory.
But it served a knowing I will carry through on this journey.
This earthly dimension is so misunderstood, mysterious, miraculous. Everything we’ve been taught is most likely false. This body-suit is simply a belief; at any moment – woooosh – it’s gone. But its Ethereal Source is Eternal.
The movie Mrs. Doubtfire. When the bus driver notices her hairy knee and says, “Natural, healthy, just the way God made ya.”
As I take my morning bath, I observe the soft hairs growing on my shins.
I’ve lost ALL of my body hair so many times through endless chemotherapy infusions. But after a deliberate 2-month chemo holiday my hair is finally growing back. I’m grateful to see my body’s ability to grow hair again! I sense a feeling of natural health, just the way God made me.
(Simultaneously, I know that my well being is not dependent upon the state of my physical body).
After a few deep breaths I contemplate the question,
What is NATURAL?
And I notice my mind’s tendency to want to find an answer; but I know from a deeper level that the answer doesn’t exist through my thinking process.
In fact, I also know from a deeper level that NO ANSWERS exist through the thinking processes. So why do I keep going there?
A few more deep breaths. I contemplate the deeper knowing that shows up as an intuitive feeling, and I simply open my heart to listen …
Something informs me … IT Says,
You are a sacred Being.
Every part of your body, even the cells that your human eye cannot observe.
And there is no separation from what is within to what appears to be outside.
This sacredness is the Only quality that comes close to an accurate understanding of the word Natural.
And when you remember and feel and honor and acknowledge that sacredness – down to the last hair on your body – you are in a state of connection with God as you are made to BE.
Why would you want to alter/change/improve upon/fix/intellectualize this Natural and sacred state of Being that you are?
What could you possibly Know more than this unfathomable Force of Creation that Made you?
That is the question I want you to ask yourself every time you get lost in thought and indecision.
Remember and recognize that through your intellect you have the ability to control and manipulate and profit and alter Life to your preferences – but you also have the ability to seek action based on the higher purpose of what is Sacred and Natural, to serve something other than your own personal mind’s agenda.
Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God.
This delightful man, who looks like Santa Claus graced me with his words today.
Here are just some of the sparkling word gems he shared that brightened my spirit, and confirmed what I know to be True, what he defines as,
“This eternally present invisible presence – that which of course is completely unshaken by the dramas of this world.“
In the bible there are 365 references to don’t be afraid, fear not, one for every day of the year. The Bible is full of clever things like this.
When you’re sure of your identity with the Eternal, when you discover what man really is, which is Spirit, then the worries about the flesh they diminish. The Spirit gets stronger until you really just laugh at it.
Compared to bad thinking, all the chemicals and plastics in the world is peanuts.
This world is a shadow of Divine origin, it comes to pass just like a nightmare. It has no reality of itself. Its only real as far as we believe in it. That is the fact. When one person even has the foggiest notion of this, it somehow raises the general level of consciousness. Those that recognize it more fully help to raise it even more.
Those that fully realize the infinite nature of man, they lift the whole world.
You can find it, my dears. It’s well documented. I’m one of many, many who have realized it and I’m pleased to share it.
When I was ready to graduate high school I had to choose a quote to place under my yearbook photo. Always acting from a strange intuition that I never questioned, I chose lyrics from ‘Stairway to Heaven’ (It was 1978).
“There are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there’s still time to change the road you’re on.”
I wasn’t so sure what it meant at the time.
There are many interpretations of the famous song; but one of them is that you can’t find happiness, peace, truth, God, light here in the material riches of the world. I think I’ve always known that; although my paths to recognizing it’s truth has been varied. I’ve changed roads many times.
But this single road has always been calling to me. What road is this?
It’s the road that is NOW (past, present and future), aka, the middle pillar (the third eye, aka, ajna – sanskrit for perceiving, light).
The ONLY path there is.
We can’t see it with our physical eyes or hear it with our physical ears. Yet, something within always knows it’s there.
This world’s insane great divide that appears on our black screens to tell us what’s happening wants to divide us into two separate paths. One of them appears to be technocratic control and transhumanism. The other appears to be freedom from control and government/medical manipulation.
However, upon close contemplation, this is a fraud. The only REAL freedom exists through the ONE middle pillar. It is not of this world. It has nothing to do with this world’s corrupt government options.
It is the path to Truth and Light and Happiness that is Everlasting (regardless of the pain and suffering and tears one may endure while in the physical world).
It is a place where the mind finds stillness.
As a wise woman of alchemy and linguistics, Lavette, says, “The word media actually means mi – dio (my god). And unfortunately, we’ve allowed the media to be our god. It is guiding us further down the path of deceit and corruption.
So how do we live in this world?
Be still to gather your inner knowing, and sit with it.
Use your breath to quiet the chaos.
Know what you’re for (instead of dwelling on what you’re against) and take action on that.
Trust the Middle Pillar (the inner knowing) and the guides will appear.
I’m prayerfully asking this NOW for me,
and for our beautiful planet’s real potential to exist as heaven through our conscious mind that is ONE with God.