Sometimes I go into the bathroom to bury my face into the bath towel
So I can sob without being heard
It’s a strange thing.
Why am I feeling it so strongly?
What is sadness?
Perhaps without sadness we could never really know JOY.
I’ll go with that.
I’ll take the high road.
The gift of knowing real joy.
As hard as it is to swallow that you’re more near death than you were before
the blessing comes in it’s gift of growing closer to God.
And the people in your life.
Who you care so much about.
To know it’s time to tell them how you really feel.
How much you love them.
Regardless of the pain or anguish they may have brought into your lives.
To feel the sadness with all your heart.
So that you can enJOY the experiences you have left with loved ones.
I really know that now.
The angels are hovering over me to help me see it clearly.
It’s the Love God gave You to find within You and joyously share with others
Everything else is really all bullshit.
I pray for the Strength to fully Be that Being of Light.
“One of the best definitions which I have come across is that which defines evolution as “the unfolding of a continually increasing power to respond.”
― Alice A. Bailey, The Consciousness of the Atom
Finding myself in a place that feels like I’ve grown/evolved/changed in so many ways. Yet there’s an awareness that knows it’s somehow happening for reasons I can’t possibly understand. My neighbor, who was recently diagnosed with leukemia takes long walks with me when she’s home from her treatments. She is very religious, and during our walk today she shared something with me.
She said, “Sometimes our suffering is for someone else’s sake.”
I may have heard this before, but today it resonated more deeply. Not in a religious way. But in a way that affirmed that this Life Experience is beyond our limited knowledge of human existence.
Recently, I’ve had strong feelings/intuitions/awareness of my choice in every situation/relationship/communication with others of how to respond/behave/communicate.
It is NOT for my own sake. Because there is no my own.
I AM an expression of God’s Love. God is radiant, and It’s power is in the expansion of It’s Infinite Potentiality to show it’s True Nature.
I am Here to Be that (Love) for the other. In turn, it will expand and reflect Itself back to me. And how beautifully peaceful it feels when one recognizes that Truth and experiences it’s manifestations in the material world.
That means even through pain and illness and suffering, I am Here to Be that (Love) for the other.
I wish I had a more eloquent way of expressing this idea. But more importantly, I hope to remember to respond as if I know it is my purpose in life.