soul

“The soul is a part of man which is little known and only seldom realized. Every one may have access to the soul. It lies deep within the recesses of our own being. Desire for the higher attainments of life is the first requisite; and then a continuous turning within until the goal has been attained. a good start may be made through the realization of the truth that there is even more to human existence than corporeal health and material supply. When we catch a glimpse of the fact that more dollars, homes or automobiles do not constitute supply, that more travel does not constitute recreation; that absence of illness is not necessarily health; in other words; that ‘my Kingdom is not of this world’ we are going in the right direction to discover the realm of Soul.”

The Infinite Way, Joel S. Goldsmith

A few days ago it appeared. Outside my back door window there it was. Ridiculously obvious, but it’s message evaded me at first. Only the heart shape caught my immediate attention. Each morning I return to observe the “opening” in the outside snow through my window. Perhaps it will change? Or maybe it will disappear? How could that possibly look so perfectly heart-shaped?

As a result of the two feet of snowfall, my entire backyard pond has disappeared, and all that remains is a heart-shaped opening – almost like a breathing hole for the fish in the pond. (of note, we do have a pump running to keep oxygen for the fish, but that’s on the other end of the pond).

So each morning I return to admire and inquire of this “opening”, What is it you’re showing me?

Today it replied…

You are finding purpose here. Although it feels painful at times, like you’re going insane, and experiencing a complete breakdown of anything you once believed in, your purpose here is becoming more true. The true part comes alive when you trust your intuition that this material world manifestation you’re perceiving is only one reflection of the Truth of Life. Everything is that hole. Everything. An infinite potentiality of Creation beyond your wildest thoughts.

It continued to explain…

You know absolutely nothing through your thinking mind. Every time you feel sure of your rightness – you fall again, back into ignorance. Instead, let yourself fall into that infinite hole of Truth, the hole that is Creation Itself. There is nothing you can think that will change or alter IT. Trust IT. Place all of your faith in IT. Give your heart to IT. IT is infinitely connected through your Soul. Trust IT, Janet. It does not require belief in anything here in the material world.

It feels like I’ve always known this. Somewhere so deep that it easily gets lost in the muck of indoctrinated, learned perceptions.

But, thank God, not so deep that it is lost. The miracle is that the Soul’s purpose is infinitely present, and if we seek it – it can appear in unimaginable ways.

unknowing

The day was so perfect for walking outdoors. Endless blue sky. Sunshine so blaring that my shade glasses couldn’t even soften the intensity of brightness.

A perfect moment to hear God’s voice.

It’s your own incessant knowing that is deceiving you.

Why is it you accept your unknowing about death; but can’t accept your unknowing about life?

So often you’ll recognize that no matter what you think you can’t absolutely know what death is. Why can’t you recognize that you can’t absolutely know what life is?

None of MY creations can know. Only the Creator holds the WHOLENESS of Knowing.

If you could see and hear the Reality of Being you would recognize the jewels of creation in a way you can’t now.

You would drop to your knees right now and place your lips on the dirt and stones beneath your feet.

You would raise your eyes to the blaring sun and cry out in devotion and amazement of its glory.

You would raise your arms to the endless blue sky and surrender to your ignorance of Life Itself.

Faith and hope and wonder and surprise and joy and ecstasy would fill your heart beyond your understanding.

Until then, you have not come full circle.

You remain on the rat wheel thinking you know something about life and making up stories and ideas that are simply beliefs you want to believe are true.

None of them are true, Janet.

ONLY I AM IS TRUTH.

THE BEGINNING, THE END, THE ALL.

Upon hearing God’s voice today, I really wanted to kneel down and place my lips on the dirt. Or lift my arms and bow down in adoration to the sun above. But I didn’t want my neighbors to think I’m a complete lunatic. The ego still holds its grip.

As I humbly continued my walk home, I saw the details of shadow and light in a more pronounced vibrancy.

Arriving home, I saw my husband in a new light. I saw my cancer in a new light. I saw my anger, my love, my emotions and my fragile body as a miraculous fleeting experience in my own awareness.

I will forget … but it’s okay … when I’m ready to remember ….

God’s voice is omnipresent

dream message

When I awoke this morning, I had a feeling/knowing sense about my dream experience.

Here’s my recollection:

There were images. They stood on their own, like beings. These images appeared as black shapes, (symbols?) tall, thin, rounded, simplistic amoeba-like forms. I had no understanding of their relative size (large, small?), just a feeling/knowing that these black symbol/shapes represented something huge and …

Invincible

Irrepressible

Unaffected

Innate

Unintentional

Neutral

Endless

It was as if they were appearing to me as timeless representatives of all of those qualities, informing my consciousness that they were the alpha and the omega, the beginning-less and end-less ground of all EXISTENCE.

In my dream experience, the feeling/knowing imparted by these symbol/images was a sense of pure ease and certainty of all truth and meaning in their underlying existence to all known LIFE.

I awoke wishing I could have had something more solid to translate to my limited thinking mind, and I remain humbled by the mystery of the unknown Divine Majesty of Life which we (all humans on earth) remain unaware of.

I want to believe that the shapes represent the symbols we have built our belief systems on from the beginning of known existence. The symbols that we have used to create our own realities. And that their essence is the building block of all known reality here on earth.

If any reader has had a similar experience, or insight, please do share.

I’ll close with this sacred text …

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was a god.* (or “was Divine.)

John 1:1-3

The pull of God

This time-stream I’m witnessing on planet earth feels kind of like the worst movie I’ve ever seen.

Like when you’re watching a movie and you want it to horrify you, enrage you, confuse you …

I wonder … Could it be that deep within our collective unconscious we want this scenario that’s seemingly happening?

And because we thought it, we desired it, we feared it, we imagined it,

it has to play out?

Anything we can possibly dream up – the most auspicious and the most ominous

Sooner or later it’s gotta show up – Every potential will be manifested

What the hell is going on here?

Are we lost and hopeless? Is there anything that we can do? What on earth is happening? Is anything true? Is this all a concocted game of insanity without purpose? What the hell am I doing here?

Then I relax. Breath. Close my eyes.

I feel alone in my uncertainty.

I hold the moment of silent inward connection.

Through what feels like my heart’s voice, I can feel what I intuit to be God’s (Absolute) pull.

It pulls so strongly at my heart that I can’t help but feel Certain that this pull is the most important thing to place my attention on. It’s voice silently informs me that I should spend every waking (and sleeping) moment in Time in devotion to Serve Its purpose, even though I don’t understand it.

This pull wants me to Trust It’s Certainty.

It says, Don’t ever stop contemplating my mystery and my omnipresence. This is your highest purpose.

And even when I forget, and feel lost in uncertainty, this pull of God continues to yearn for me to remember.

…you should no longer go on walking just as the nations also walk, in the futility ( emptiness; vanity) of their minds. They are in darkness mentally and alienated from the life that belongs to God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the insensitivity (dulling) of their hearts. (Ephesians 4:17, 18). Let a rotten word not come out of your mouth, but only what is good for building up as the need may be, to impart what is beneficial to the hearers (Ephesians 4:29)

I am pulled to remember that this paper world is not Real. We have forgotten how to connect with nature (God) and our materialism has become the only God we know. Of course, it looks bleak when we place our trust in what is Not True.

I feel the pull …. I feel the pull … I feel the pull of my heart strings.