“Fixed constructs keep us from experiencing the fluidity of reality which contains the abundance and connections that we long for on this journey. You must ask yourselves in each moment, What am I programming?” Jenny Schiltz
My contemplation in the garden was insightful today.
I felt the plasma-like substance that Jenny Schiltz talks about in her recent blog post. Yes, indeed. I do agree, this plasma is programmable.
But this is what I saw today:
This plasma is YOU and ME. (you can substitute the word God for plasma if you prefer)
It is the very fascia of our being and all of what we perceive as planet Earth.
Who programs this plasma? YOU and ME.
Our thoughts program the plasma.
Think of a fractal. The way it is infinitely the same above and below, a spiraling infinity of as above so below, but there’s really no separation of above and below. We just can’t see above and below.
We only see the level of our own conscious awareness in each moment – which is reflected into the plasma that we perceive as outside of us.
But this plasma is already programmed for eons to hide the reality of this fluid movement of energy so that we are unaware, unconscious, and disbelieving of its power within each of us.
Can we un-program our plasma, or re-program it?
The infinite layers of stuck and programmed ideas, beliefs, and indoctrinated behaviors is the plasma that’s playing the current movie feature called Life on Earth.
YOU and I create this.
How did I envision this today?
I witnessed the natural behaviors of the living things;
Kale grown from tiny seedlings
Ants creating pathways through the dirt
Deep-rooted grass weeds, so hard to pull
Soft clover yielding easily to my touch.
IT knows. Life showed me. IT pointed directly to the nature of reality that I AM, and I listened.
Simultaneously, I felt the burning pain in my right breast from the Shingles virus, a condition I’ve manifested over the past several months.
This stinging pain said to me,
You are transforming, Janet. You are always becoming and always being. Forever connected to truth, even when you don’t see it clearly. This body will only show you what your mind thinks. Good or bad. It will always mirror your thoughts.
I AM plasma.
The only moments that I feel truly at ease, peaceful, maybe even blissful (Ananda) is when I remember (re-know) the Truth (Sat) about the illusive quality of perception in the “world”.
What you believe, so shall you perceive. That’s about as close as one can get to a spiritual truth.
All the anxiety, indecision, depression, angst, fear …. yes, it’s real because I can FEEL it.
But when I crack open my knowing heart, and remember the Truth of I AM, or GOD IS, or disbelieve the separation (duality), a soft wave of peacefulness returns to the center of the chest.
“When a teacher of God first learns that he or she is the dreamer of the dream they are still attached to the dream and are tempted to use their growing awareness of Reality to change the dream to suit their individual dream figure desires instead of to awaken. This is an attempt at a compromise where the dreamer tries to have the power of the dreamer while still being a figure in the dream, but in the end this will fail because a dream is not real; it will always leave the dreamer feeling empty, and seeking for wholeness. Only awakening from the dream will make the dreamer feel whole again. Through awakening the dreamer’s experience of the dream does improve, but only because the dreamer realizes that it is a dream.
The Holy Instant, in Which the teacher of God steps out of time for a moment to be with God, is the greatest tool that he or she has to undo the dream of time. In that Instant time is over; there is no dream. The more a teacher of God practices the Holy Instant, and lives in the present with the Presence of the Holy Spirit, the less time means to him or her. The dream recedes in value and importance, and the experience of the Holy Instant becomes more compelling to the teacher of God than anything in time.
In essence, time is the dreamer living the one instant of not-God/undoing not-God over and over again, but in the midst of time this takes so many forms it is almost impossible to see. The teacher of God, however, begins to see it the more he or she experiences the Holy Instant. They begin to see the nothingness of the dream, and how silly it is to give it weight and to take it seriously. All that has happened is a thought that can never be reality. There is really nothing to forgive because nothing real has happened. God is.” A Course in Miracles
“Enlightenment is not seeing everything through the distortion called egoic state of consciousness. That’s why it’s called natural state; It’s perception without a lens. Ultimately that’s what enlightenment is: Perception without distortion.” Adyashanti
The dream state is a lustrous gem
here’s where all of the distortions are revealed
In perfect living color, form and sound
Because in TIME
I only see through the lens of my perceptions (distortions)
But when sleep time comes, the TIME perceptions dissolve
Now I can see through it all
My dreams show me what I know in a way I can’t really comprehend
It would be too jarring for my indoctrinated left-sided brain
So my dream time gives me truths incognito
I am learning to unlock the symbolic coding
and it’s beginning to shine crystal clear
OH MY SACRED DREAM TIME
watching documentary on Steven Spielberg, and re-experiencing the emotions evoked from the movie Schindler’s List.
each time I re-witness scenes of the Holocaust, or read a book describing events of that time in history, I find myself in an emotional state of extreme sorrow where the tears are overflowing, and the tears are so necessary, as if to release all of the (remembered?) horror.
did I live through this?
is that possible?
did we all live through this?
did we all create that experience?
An interesting analogy by Alan Watts about the past:
He likens it to a boat on a lake (The Present) and the wake behind the boat (The Past). The moving water behind the boat does NOT create the boat. It’s just the opposite. The boat (the Present) creates the wake (the Past)
The Present creates the Past
So the past only can exist in the present. Our memories of the Past occur only in the present, and that is what informs our present (and future).
That’s where this innate human quality of compassion comes in. A feeling that is Real and Exists in the Present. And is imperative for the truth of Love to exist in the present moment.
My teacher, Adyashanti, expresses it so exquisitely:
“On a human level, it’s really useful — not just to know, but to feel — that that part of your being that is unconditioned has no problem with your humanity. It’s really important for the humanity to feel that, because that’s what it’s looking for — something in the universe that’s not judging it, condemning it, or even praising it.”
“Dualistic consciousness is also a manifestation of the ultimate ground. There’s no part of us that’s apart or other — even though there are different qualities and different experiences — there is no apartness. It’s so important to let yourself experience that. Because to receive that in the human heart feels like love.”
“Compassion is selfless love. It is what gives all of our other impulses balance. It is why, from the level of consciousness, we can be self-interested and rightly so — and simultaneously — have these very selfless impulses. This is all part of our nature.”
“Compassion literally comes from the ultimate ground because compassion is that feeling that: I will do something for someone even if it is not in my self-interest.”
“Compassion is actually quite a common occurrence in human beings. You don’t have to look very far for it — that feeling that you love something or someone in such a way that your sense of your own well-being is transcended.”