I checked my phone for the weather in Lackawaxen.

“No rain for the rest of the day, just cloudy,” I said to my husband. “Let’s take our walk.”

We got about half-way around the big U-shaped dirt road. It started raining. Slow at first, but then real heavy. We laughed and tried to shelter under tree branches.

At least I had my hiking rain jacket with a hood, so I didn’t get as soaked as Frank, who was wearing shorts and a cotton shirt.

Lesson learned …

Maybe we’ve all been programmed to rely too much on technology? (LOL, no kidding!)

Although the science of weather forecast, observing, analyzing and predicting, is one we’ve been able to get better at – it will NEVER suffice to know what’s beyond our control and understanding.

Like the Nature of Creation.

Creation is way beyond our real understanding. We can only use symbols to allude to its unfathomable and infinite BEING.

As I laughed and sang in the rain, I contemplated …

How awesome is this Creation?

How amazing is our Creator?

A Creator Always conspiring to open our hearts to God’s Truth

Everything in Nature is showing us that God is the Only Truth

As I laughed and sang in the rain, I prayed .;..

May we find remembrance and remain hopeful that we’ve not gone so far into forgetfulness that we’re beyond return.

May we remember that Science is about measurement and predictions of matter but that God is the Source of Matter.

May we never forget to honor the Mystery of Divinity in every waking moment of our lives.

May we remember the Divinity of Nature and always be in Awe.

May we remember to laugh and to sing in the rain.

The Spiritual Meaning of Water:

You can find it, my dears

This delightful man, who looks like Santa Claus graced me with his words today.

Here are just some of the sparkling word gems he shared that brightened my spirit, and confirmed what I know to be True, what he defines as,

This eternally present invisible presence – that which of course is completely unshaken by the dramas of this world.

In the bible there are 365 references to don’t be afraid, fear not, one for every day of the year. The Bible is full of clever things like this.

When you’re sure of your identity with the Eternal, when you discover what man really is, which is Spirit, then the worries about the flesh they diminish. The Spirit gets stronger until you really just laugh at it.

Compared to bad thinking, all the chemicals and plastics in the world is peanuts.

This world is a shadow of Divine origin, it comes to pass just like a nightmare. It has no reality of itself. Its only real as far as we believe in it. That is the fact. When one person even has the foggiest notion of this, it somehow raises the general level of consciousness. Those that recognize it more fully help to raise it even more.

Those that fully realize the infinite nature of man, they lift the whole world.

You can find it, my dears. It’s well documented. I’m one of many, many who have realized it and I’m pleased to share it.

The pull of God

This time-stream I’m witnessing on planet earth feels kind of like the worst movie I’ve ever seen.

Like when you’re watching a movie and you want it to horrify you, enrage you, confuse you …

I wonder … Could it be that deep within our collective unconscious we want this scenario that’s seemingly happening?

And because we thought it, we desired it, we feared it, we imagined it,

it has to play out?

Anything we can possibly dream up – the most auspicious and the most ominous

Sooner or later it’s gotta show up – Every potential will be manifested

What the hell is going on here?

Are we lost and hopeless? Is there anything that we can do? What on earth is happening? Is anything true? Is this all a concocted game of insanity without purpose? What the hell am I doing here?

Then I relax. Breath. Close my eyes.

I feel alone in my uncertainty.

I hold the moment of silent inward connection.

Through what feels like my heart’s voice, I can feel what I intuit to be God’s (Absolute) pull.

It pulls so strongly at my heart that I can’t help but feel Certain that this pull is the most important thing to place my attention on. It’s voice silently informs me that I should spend every waking (and sleeping) moment in Time in devotion to Serve Its purpose, even though I don’t understand it.

This pull wants me to Trust It’s Certainty.

It says, Don’t ever stop contemplating my mystery and my omnipresence. This is your highest purpose.

And even when I forget, and feel lost in uncertainty, this pull of God continues to yearn for me to remember.

…you should no longer go on walking just as the nations also walk, in the futility ( emptiness; vanity) of their minds. They are in darkness mentally and alienated from the life that belongs to God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the insensitivity (dulling) of their hearts. (Ephesians 4:17, 18). Let a rotten word not come out of your mouth, but only what is good for building up as the need may be, to impart what is beneficial to the hearers (Ephesians 4:29)

I am pulled to remember that this paper world is not Real. We have forgotten how to connect with nature (God) and our materialism has become the only God we know. Of course, it looks bleak when we place our trust in what is Not True.

I feel the pull …. I feel the pull … I feel the pull of my heart strings.


It’s often the simplest seeming gesture or word/idea that serves as a deep awakening.

As I’m reading The Most Important Thing, (Adyashanti), I’m reminded ….

How we IDENTIFY with a thought about absolutely anything can create either suffering or happiness.

This has been so helpful for me to re-cognize, again, simple as it is.

Further grace dropped into my consciousness while I was revisiting my old dream journals, as I’m preparing to work on my new project, The Yoga of Dreaming.

I was reminded of a teaching at a silent retreat that served a deep awakening for me, at that time:

“You will NEVER find TRUTH looking through the MIND”

Why is this SO important to re-cognize?

Because the Mind’s nonstop evaluation of its perceptions are occurring in TIME (in this dimension of reality)

We already know Time is an illusion, right? But in Time the only thing we can actually KNOW through EXPERIENCE is the present moment

Everything else is the UNKNOWN

The unknown = FEAR (most of the time), especially the unknowing about death

Which leaves 99.99999% of us living in FEAR (aka anxiety) pretty much all of the TIME

To eliminate this constant state of fear, our only hope would be to let go of identifying with the MIND’s obsessive compulsion to make up stories about everything – and then believe it’s TRUE!!!!

Sounds simple enough.

But it’s not simple. Why?

Because the UNKNOWN will always be the only thing that is TRUE.

Our MIND cannot accept that.

What can we do?

Sit still. Be quiet. Observe. Listen. Feel. Laugh. Watch nature. Trust. Open your heart to gratitude. Take Action without attaching to outcome. Be YOU, authentically.

KNOW that you will never KNOW.

Remind yourself every day.

Even this writing is not true.
It’s just an attempt to express the ineffable……..

suggestions welcome

An Idea leaves not its Source

“We know that an idea leaves not its source.

And death is the result of the thought we call the ego, as surely as life is the result of the Thought of God.”   from A Course in Miracles, Ch. 19

From Merriam-Webster: Definition of IDEA:

1a : a transcendent entity that is a real pattern of which existing things are imperfect representations

2 archaic :a visible representation of a conception :a replica of a pattern

3a obsolete: an image recalled by memory

b:an indefinite or unformed conception

c: an entity (such as a thought, concept, sensation, or image) actually or potentially present to consciousness

There is so much the mind can be confused about!!

I think Nisargadatta expresses that perfectly: “Do understand that the mind has its limits: to go beyond, you must consent to silence.

Having breast cancer (or any dis-ease that is causing undesirable body changes) is a fascinating way to watch one’s mind look for answers as to what “to do” about it.

For me, its been an experiment in watching my mind oscillate between

This was caused by my mind, and it will be healed by my mind

to ‘maybe this chemo thing was a mistake’

to ‘maybe the chemotherapy has value since the scientific community has been spending zillions of dollars studying it

to ‘If I am what I eat, how did i get sick when I eat organic and healthy food?’

Not one of these thoughts really feels completely accurate or helpful or even vaguely true to me. Because I don’t really know what the body even is.

Is the ego the body’s Source?

Is God the ego’s Source?

Isn’t God everything’s Source?

I think so. And that would make our mind and body an IDEA in God’s mind!!

It seems like we’re separate from Source, but we never actually left.

If God (or whatever name you choose for Source) is the only Truth – the only One Idea that Exists, then every other potential idea, even God’s opposite (not-God) is possible as an idea to believe in – even if it’s NOT true. (like the illusion of Time)

I need to look even deeper, in silence. And the question arises, ‘What is this “body” really?’

I find this interesting response …..

“The initiates of old warned their disciples that an image is not a reality but merely the objectification of a subjective idea. The image, of the gods were not designed to be objects of worship but were to be regarded merely as emblems or reminders of invisible powers and principles. Similarly, the body of man must not be considered as the individual but only as the house of the individual, in the same manner that the temple was the House of God. In a state of grossness and perversion man’s body is the tomb or prison of a divine principle; in a state of unfoldment and regeneration it is the House or Sanctuary of the Deity by whose creative powers it was fashioned. “Personality is suspended upon a thread from the nature of Being,” declares the secret work. Man is essentially a permanent and immortal principle; only his bodies pass through the cycle of birth and death. The immortal is the reality; the mortal is the unreality. During each period of earth life, reality thus dwells in unreality, to be liberated from it temporarily by death and permanently by illumination.

THE SECRET TEACHINGS OF ALL AGES  by Manly P. Hall [1928, copyright not renewed]

Posted Image: Annie Cavanagh, Wellcome Images

They look like little cinnamon candies here, but they’re actually the most common type of blood cell in the human body – red blood cells (RBCs). These biconcave-shaped cells have the tall task of carrying oxygen to our entire body; in women there are about 4 to 5 million RBCs per microliter (cubic millimeter) of blood and about 5 to 6 million in men. People who live at higher altitudes have even more RBCs because of the low oxygen levels in their environment.

Tree tumor

“Tumors are growths of plants, animals, or men in which the normal processes of
control are, for some reason, ineffective, so that continued cell division results in
massive disorganized development. When they are localized and not seriously
inimical to the general functioning of the supporting body, they are called “benign.”
When their location or manner of development is such as to kill the supporting
individual, they are called “malignant” and in man become “cancers.”
Tumors may arise from many causes, including parasites and infections of many
kinds. The term “cancer,” however, is generally limited to malignant tumors
which arise from no clearly recognizable cause and in which some one or more cells
of the host body have undergone a permanent change which renders them unaffected
by normal growth restraints so that the altered cell itself becomes a parasite
or an infectious agent.
Tumors exist in all classes of multicellular, organized living beings. In plants,
essentially malignant tumors are known to be caused by hereditary factors, by certain
bacteria, and by viruses.1 Today’s discussion centers around one group of
such tumors of plants, the bacterial “crown gall.” My own contribution deals
with a massive tumor which is not known to be a “crown gall” and, in fact, appears
not to be such, yet possesses features which seem to justify careful study (Fig. 1).

“Burls” are well-known massive intumescences which occur occasionally on all
sorts of trees.”



A walk in the woods with the grandchildren yesterday revealed a tree I had not noticed before.

I saw it first, and brought their attention to it. We all came close to observe. I photographed it especially to see the interesting carved-like markings.

Does Spirit have a message for me?

stay tuned ……..