going deeper

Recently, I felt a calling to take up puzzles again. There’s a noticeable shift in awareness when I’m working on a puzzle. My dreams are more resonant, and I feel like I’ve worked things out upon awakening. I sense that the puzzles have also been helpful in shifting my perspective on Life to more of an aerial view.

This perspective becomes clearer when I trust my inner compass to guide my understanding about Life. I especially like the words/phrases below; although their meanings may be intellectually abstract, the experience they point to is becoming more Real and concrete for me.

What do these words mean for you?

  • Voice Within
  • Deeper Conscience
  • Deeper Nature
  • Higher Purpose
  • Deeper Knowledge Within
  • Higher Vantage Point
  • Power and Presence of Knowledge
  • Natural Resonance
  • Empathy Felt at a Deeper Level

I extracted the above words from an essay called Forgiveness, by Marshall Vian Summers, excerpt below:

The choice really is a choice for the individual as to what voice within themselves they will listen to. Will they listen to the power and presence of Knowledge that God has placed within them to guide them, to protect them and to lead them to a greater life? Or will they listen to the voice of their own personal mind that seeks to protect itself above all things that will meet its needs first, regardless of the consequences for other peoples?

This is not an ideological debate. It is not an intellectual problem. It is more fundamental than this. It is a question of whether you will follow your deeper conscience or your own fear and insecurity. If you see that your deeper nature is beyond your mind, then you will not become so identified with your ideas, your beliefs or your prejudices, and you will be much more reserved in judging, condemning or dismissing others.

This kind of self-awareness is so very important because when people are denied recognition of their deeper nature, their thinking becomes aberrant. They identify with their thoughts and their possessions, and their ability to recognize others and to experience compassion is limited or destroyed altogether.

From the standpoint of having a higher purpose, you realize that everyone is teaching you the value of Knowledge. Both their successes and their failures are showing you the importance of adhering to this deeper Knowledge within yourself. Why would you condemn others when they are teaching you the results of not following Knowledge within yourself? When people are making every kind of error and experiencing the consequences of these errors, why would you condemn them when they are showing you the results of your own temptation to deny the power, presence and guidance of Knowledge within yourself?

From a higher vantage point, from the perspective of recognizing that you have a higher purpose in life, you will see these things. Perhaps you could not see them before, but you will see them clearly now. You will see that life is teaching you that there is only Knowledge or the substitutes for Knowledge. There is only being true to your deeper nature, or there is betrayal in all directions.

Here you must understand that not everything that happens is beneficial. If you try to make everything wonderful and beneficial, you will be dishonest, and dishonesty leads to great errors and great difficulties. And so your evaluation must be based upon a deeper awareness within yourself that is not really ideological in nature. It is more of a natural resonance. It is beyond the intellect. It is the empathy you feel with people at a deeper level.

Knowing and Not Knowing

It can go either way; both ways, neither way, one way or another.

That is the beauty of the Mystery of Life

But we are still trying to manifest what we think we Know in the world.

We need Both Knowing and Not Knowing.

We need All of it. We need None of it.

Flashback: I was 10 or 11 years old. I’d get off the school bus and walk half-a-mile home, down Roberts Road and up the hill to Johanna Lane. This was 1970, and thankfully children did not have to carry their I phones everywhere. So my daily walk home from the school bus was an opportunity to be quiet with myself in nature.

One day, walking up the hill to my house, A HUGE, QUIET awareness entered my 10-year-old psyche. For the briefest moment time stood still and I became aware of Awareness Itself.

Of course, as a 10-year-old child I lacked the maturity to even process an experience like this. But it was experienced in a way that Janet’s little mind could actually sense Big Mind – and yet there was a noticing that they were BOTH Janet’s mind!

It was like looking through the opening of a long tube and observing a single eye looking back at you from the other end. But it’s Your Eye!

This was my first introduction to Zen, and I didn’t even Know it. But the perfume never left me.

Flashback to present time reality. The paradoxical predicament of Knowing and simultaneously Not Knowing has presented a subtle change in my awareness post silent retreat.

Whenever I observe my mind’s seemingly natural tendency to compulsively plan future moments, to obsessively over evaluate, and to habitually fall into conditioned storytelling, I do stop, take a moment, and allow the Voice of Not Knowing to remind me to lighten up and let go. However, it seems there is an equally powerful Voice of Knowing that I also have access to.

This Knowing Voice can often guide my actions in the world. This Knowing Voice witnesses the insanity of the world and guides me to see the truth of the matter. It always informs me where to place my heart’s intentions.

In time-dimension reality, it seems that our new God could easily be called Technology if we succumb to the obsessive desire to Create a Controlling God. Be alert and informed and aware of the positive AND negative potentials of this powerful God.

My Knowing heart’s intentions are screaming, Go outside and see the Natural life around you.

Plant a seed and wonder if it will grow or not.

Trust that Life will always Exist regardless of your attempted manipulation of it.

I attached the video below because I was intrigued in the way David brings to light the potential truths of transhumanist agendas, and I just love him. He doesn’t give a shit if people think he’s wacko, he speaks from the Knowing in his own heart.  And I was even more pleasantly surprised when the video switches midway to an interview with Monnica Sepulveda (at around 28 minutes). Profound insights …….

(video credit inspired by Out of this world X, Hatter’s blog)