“Fixed constructs keep us from experiencing the fluidity of reality which contains the abundance and connections that we long for on this journey. You must ask yourselves in each moment, What am I programming?” Jenny Schiltz
My contemplation in the garden was insightful today.
I felt the plasma-like substance that Jenny Schiltz talks about in her recent blog post. Yes, indeed. I do agree, this plasma is programmable.
But this is what I saw today:
This plasma is YOU and ME. (you can substitute the word God for plasma if you prefer)
It is the very fascia of our being and all of what we perceive as planet Earth.
Who programs this plasma? YOU and ME.
Our thoughts program the plasma.
Think of a fractal. The way it is infinitely the same above and below, a spiraling infinity of as above so below, but there’s really no separation of above and below. We just can’t see above and below.
We only see the level of our own conscious awareness in each moment – which is reflected into the plasma that we perceive as outside of us.
But this plasma is already programmed for eons to hide the reality of this fluid movement of energy so that we are unaware, unconscious, and disbelieving of its power within each of us.
Can we un-program our plasma, or re-program it?
The infinite layers of stuck and programmed ideas, beliefs, and indoctrinated behaviors is the plasma that’s playing the current movie feature called Life on Earth.
YOU and I create this.
How did I envision this today?
I witnessed the natural behaviors of the living things;
Kale grown from tiny seedlings
Ants creating pathways through the dirt
Deep-rooted grass weeds, so hard to pull
Soft clover yielding easily to my touch.
IT knows. Life showed me. IT pointed directly to the nature of reality that I AM, and I listened.
Simultaneously, I felt the burning pain in my right breast from the Shingles virus, a condition I’ve manifested over the past several months.
This stinging pain said to me,
You are transforming, Janet. You are always becoming and always being. Forever connected to truth, even when you don’t see it clearly. This body will only show you what your mind thinks. Good or bad. It will always mirror your thoughts.
I AM plasma.
The only moments that I feel truly at ease, peaceful, maybe even blissful (Ananda) is when I remember (re-know) the Truth (Sat) about the illusive quality of perception in the “world”.
What you believe, so shall you perceive. That’s about as close as one can get to a spiritual truth.
All the anxiety, indecision, depression, angst, fear …. yes, it’s real because I can FEEL it.
But when I crack open my knowing heart, and remember the Truth of I AM, or GOD IS, or disbelieve the separation (duality), a soft wave of peacefulness returns to the center of the chest.
“When a teacher of God first learns that he or she is the dreamer of the dream they are still attached to the dream and are tempted to use their growing awareness of Reality to change the dream to suit their individual dream figure desires instead of to awaken. This is an attempt at a compromise where the dreamer tries to have the power of the dreamer while still being a figure in the dream, but in the end this will fail because a dream is not real; it will always leave the dreamer feeling empty, and seeking for wholeness. Only awakening from the dream will make the dreamer feel whole again. Through awakening the dreamer’s experience of the dream does improve, but only because the dreamer realizes that it is a dream.
The Holy Instant, in Which the teacher of God steps out of time for a moment to be with God, is the greatest tool that he or she has to undo the dream of time. In that Instant time is over; there is no dream. The more a teacher of God practices the Holy Instant, and lives in the present with the Presence of the Holy Spirit, the less time means to him or her. The dream recedes in value and importance, and the experience of the Holy Instant becomes more compelling to the teacher of God than anything in time.
In essence, time is the dreamer living the one instant of not-God/undoing not-God over and over again, but in the midst of time this takes so many forms it is almost impossible to see. The teacher of God, however, begins to see it the more he or she experiences the Holy Instant. They begin to see the nothingness of the dream, and how silly it is to give it weight and to take it seriously. All that has happened is a thought that can never be reality. There is really nothing to forgive because nothing real has happened. God is.” A Course in Miracles
It’s often the simplest seeming gesture or word/idea that serves as a deep awakening.
As I’m reading The Most Important Thing, (Adyashanti), I’m reminded ….
How we IDENTIFY with a thought about absolutely anything can create either suffering or happiness.
This has been so helpful for me to re-cognize, again, simple as it is.
Further grace dropped into my consciousness while I was revisiting my old dream journals, as I’m preparing to work on my new project, The Yoga of Dreaming.
I was reminded of a teaching at a silent retreat that served a deep awakening for me, at that time:
“You will NEVER find TRUTH looking through the MIND”
Why is this SO important to re-cognize?
Because the Mind’s nonstop evaluation of its perceptions are occurring in TIME (in this dimension of reality)
We already know Time is an illusion, right? But in Time the only thing we can actually KNOW through EXPERIENCE is the present moment
Everything else is the UNKNOWN
The unknown = FEAR (most of the time), especially the unknowing about death
Which leaves 99.99999% of us living in FEAR (aka anxiety) pretty much all of the TIME
To eliminate this constant state of fear, our only hope would be to let go of identifying with the MIND’s obsessive compulsion to make up stories about everything – and then believe it’s TRUE!!!!
Sounds simple enough.
But it’s not simple. Why?
Because the UNKNOWN will always be the only thing that is TRUE.
Our MIND cannot accept that.
What can we do?
Sit still. Be quiet. Observe. Listen. Feel. Laugh. Watch nature. Trust. Open your heart to gratitude. Take Action without attaching to outcome. Be YOU, authentically.
KNOW that you will never KNOW.
Remind yourself every day.
Even this writing is not true.
It’s just an attempt to express the ineffable……..
Excerpted from “Authentic Spiritual Practice” CD from the Woldingham UK Retreat, Adyashanti.
(bolded and italicized words are my own modifications)
“From the ordinary standpoint, which is where we all start out, spiritual practice has a quality of being a goal-oriented activity. We’re doing it for a particular reason. We’re hoping for a particular result. We hope it will help us to awaken or reveal the truth to us, or help us find peace or freedom. That’s entirely understandable. It’s a way of relating with whatever our spiritual practice is that feels honest. That’s a conventional view of practice, whatever the spiritual practice is.
The most important part of any spiritual practice is its authenticity, its honesty. And that’s something that’s often missed. The spiritual path is an embodied form of being really true and honest with yourself. That’s not an easy thing to do, especially at the beginning.
To be aware is to be confronted with whatever the reality of your condition is at any particular moment. That can roll off the tongue very easily, but when you go to do it, it can be very challenging to really show up in your life authentically for whatever’s unfolding at that moment. We’re always trying to change what is, or explain it, or justify it, or anything other than a direct encounter with the raw reality of our condition at any given moment.
It’s not easy for human beings to be really honest with themselves. It’s one of the most stringent, demanding practices that there is—to not knowingly, intentionally deceive ourselves or others. Just start with yourself. That’s enough for any given day. It’s what needs to be informing our spiritual practice.
Spiritual practice becomes effective and powerful in direct proportion to how true and real and honestly it’s undertaken. That’s authenticity. And so much of being honest and real with ourselves is realizing what we don’t know. Knowing that we don’t know takes a lot of honesty. A space opens within the mind and even in the body when we start to know that we don’t know. We open to uncertainty: “I’m not so sure anymore. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know what enlightenment is. I don’t know what God is. I don’t really know much of what I thought I knew.” Sometimes that can be tremendously liberating, when you let go of a painful idea or belief or opinion that was really burdensome. That can be very freeing, just to get that far.
From the standpoint of realization, practice looks very different. Practice is actually an expression of the state of realization. It’s an embodied statement. At first, we can see something like meditation as a means to an end: “I hope this helps me get to where I want to get to.” But from a realized perspective, meditation actually becomes an embodied expression of that realization. It’s not the only expression by any means, but it’s one embodied expression. So then the practice and the realization become the same thing.
The underlying attitude that needs to inform our spiritual approach is basic honesty, sincerity, and truthfulness. To whatever extent we can become honest, truthful, and sincere right from the beginning, we’re actually participating in an embodied form of realization. So we can actually utilize aspects of realization far before we’re even realized.
From the viewpoint of realization itself, not only is practice an expression of realization, but it’s also simultaneously a way that realization explores itself, that reality explores itself. Again, it’s not a goal-oriented activity, because realization itself is infinite.
Realization itself has no borders. It has no boundaries. Reality can always be realizing more of itself. When it’s reality doing the realizing, there’s no goal. There’s no end. There’s no anxiety. Strictly speaking, there’s no seeking, because there’s no goal orientation. How could you make something that has an infinite capacity into a goal? Because if it’s infinite, by definition, you’re not going to get to the goal.
So practice can been seen from this other orientation, the orientation of a deeper realized state. And we can utilize some of that orientation, even if we don’t think we’re realized yet. We can use some of that attitude, you might say. In fact, it’s essential that we do use that attitude, because spiritual practice itself actually isn’t confined to specific spiritual disciplines. That’s another mistaken idea of spiritual practice, that when we’re meditating, listening to a talk, or inquiring, we’re engaged in a specific spiritual practice. But spiritual practice actually transcends all of those particular forms. It expresses itself through those embodied forms of spiritual practice. The forms are embodied expressions, but what informs all of those forms is something else.
What informs all of those forms of practice is the commitment to realization itself, which goes back to honesty, sincerity, and truthfulness. These are the primary spiritual practices. In that sense, they’re not limited to any particular form. They’re not limited to a time of meditation. You can practice honesty, sincerity, and truthfulness at any moment of your life, in any situation you might be in. Literally, these are the fundamentals of spiritual practice.”
observing the sky from a large floor to ceiling window.
in awe of a light formation in the early evening sky
it moved like swirls of wispy cloud-like substance
fast and spinning, up and down, in and out, and in a split second it’s GONE
Holy shit, what the fuck?
what the hell was that????
a moment later it reappeared in the same white cloud substance
but it was up close next to my window
it took the form of a SKELETON
not bones though, a cloud substance skeleton figure, animated as if talking to me
now I’m terror struck that this is happening right in front of my eyes
Certain life-events yesterday may have contributed to my subconscious message to Self.
- Deeply moved by words I heard (credit and thanks to Global Witness, Derek’s You Tube dharma): “Everything we see in this world is a COPY of something that’s invisible, and a poor one at that”
- Driving along Route 17M, I have an unusually compelling impulse to look at my mileage (I never do this) and the number is 11, 144.
- Life is becoming more challenging by the moment for personal and family relations and requiring my most mature spiritual understanding to discern the events.
- Halloween really is about ghosts LOL
So how is God revealing Itself to Myself through this dream?
- Don’t take things so damn seriously?
- Accept the impermanence of EVERYTHING with a lighter heart?
- Remember that my most important work here is to SEE THROUGH the bullshit and always look toward the TRUTH?
- Understand that death is not at all what we’ve been programmed to believe?
- Life’s potentiality is limitless in form?
Suggestions are welcome …….. in love and light.
(photo: Bird of Paradise, NY Botanical Gardens, Oct 2018)
Seven days of silence, a retreat lead by Adyashanti entitled, “The Embodiment of Insight”.
This was an opportunity to absorb so many pearls of wisdom evoked from the daily dharma talks, the six meditation sittings per day, the beautiful natural surroundings, and 270 beings sharing 3 meals per day, observing together both the stillness and the movement – in total Silence.
Some Pearls of wisdom worth sharing:
Always look inward to the depth of intuitive knowing. The learning comes from what’s evoked within you. The teacher should never actually have an answer to your question.
We are always Being, always Becoming.
Truth is transcendent of the opposites, but can express itself through it.
We’re all attracted to the light of the fire, but unaware of the vast open space around us.
When you meditate, Sit Tall, but let the breath be soft and easy.
Recognize that the dynamic pull of the unknown (God) is not only One Way. It goes both ways. IT needs us as much as we need IT.
There is no separation. The other side of joy is sorrow. The other side of suffering is peace. The other side of light is dark. One will always contain the other.
In the Zen tradition, nothing is explained. It is left to your own experience. I imagine that is why this teacher, Adyashanti, became such a master of dialogue and imagery, to give our rational mind something to understand.
Meditation toolbox: Look at your thoughts with Kindness, Gentleness, Compassion.
How to go ‘all the way’ through to liberation? Never deny the truth of what you actually and always are.
In the eye of the hurricane: the still point is not separate from the chaos.
BE STILL LIKE A HUMMINGBIRD, (Henry Miller): A title that’s a perfect analogy for the paradox of life.
Deep spirituality begins when we come to realize we don’t know.
This life is going to go by in a flash. Do something for yourself; Take one moment, step back, take a breath, and take it all in.
Namaste my fellow beings. In deep love I share these simple realizations.
after seeing mom yesterday, feeding her what little morsels of dinner she could eat, she said to me, “I’m afraid of what’s going to happen to me”
my heart broken for her suffering, all that came to me were the words that felt true:
“do you remember your faith? do you remember your connection to God? when you feel anxious, remember that connection. it is always there with you”
I don’t know if she heard a word or received that, but I gave it for it was all I had
This morning, I had the Grace of listening to a talk by Derek at Global Witness that served me deeply today. One of the truths that he makes to clear is that there’s so much more to what we “see” in this world, it is more than what we think we know.
This is only a short excerpt of the hour long discussion:
“What do you have that is valuable?
Do you love really well?
What is your gift, no matter how small?
How do you invest it?
Take what little you have and invest it in others.
If all you do all day is to encourage people to seek who they are, you are investing your courage, you’re investing what little you’ve been given.
To those who have been given, more will be given.so you have a responsibility to care for the things you have.
Speaking of this ascension:
The Ascent is the gift of Christ, which is humility of heart:
The acceptable sacrifice is a contrite heart
You just give all of this world away.
This is my posture all the time: Head down, hands out, I’ve got nothing.
And every single day, every time I do that, he puts something in my hands.
Every single day I come to him with that humble and contrite heart, he gives me something else, and never are they my possessions, they are always His.
That’s why you don’t take those things in vein like his name. You don’t take things to be your own because nothing is yours, all of it is ours.
These truths are already in you. You once knew them and they have been removed. You knew them because they are the blueprint of mankind.
The return of ‘the son of man’ is the return of that blueprint within you.
Christ is Everywhere but Nowhere. The father is everywhere but nowhere. It cannot be in a single place if it covers all places.”
photo: Christine Chan, Sukha Arts